I realized today that my life’s purpose is simply to be the lighting in the room. It’s a lonely job. There are very few people that I can make a connection with that won’t treat me like a drug. It’s no easy, it makes me sad, and I’ll be okay.
So I’m leaving Seattle today to head back to San Diego and it’s been crazy. Woke up late, dropped the rental off, took the shuttle to the airport. Got in line for bags and realized I didn’t have my purse, got back on the shuttle, had Siemens locate the rental, got my purse, got back on the shuttle to the airport, checked bags in, got in security line, made it to the gate 10 minutes after boarding started and the plane isn’t here yet. So with all the craziness I still managed to get on my flight. The whole time I was running around I was thinking “God has me, if I miss it there’s a reason.”
The night I wanted to end it all you made me okay enough to sleep and make it through the night. The next I awoke feeling a little better than the night before but still holding those thoughts and emotions at bay. That day, you reminded me why life is worth living.
One person, a single soul on this earth, helped me be okay.
You’re words and actions can make a difference.
Have courage and be kind; always
god is good. Today the message was very clear: things may not work out when or how we want them to, but they will work out.
I adore every body of water from a tiny puddle after a sprinkle of rain to beautiful ocean and everything in between.
Yet every time I’m struggling with illness I feel like I’m drowning…
I hope I have the strength and courage to not let it beat me…
One day at a time